'How Do You Know?'

Lana Del Ray - Young & Beautiful.

We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.

- Sam Keen -

Today is my last day in Malaysia before I fly of to Rishikesh for one month. You asked me, 'Do you love me? How do you know?'

I know because of the way my heart jumps when your name pops up at the top of my screen.

I know because you are always in the back of my mind, no matter the time, no matter the activity.

I know because you're the first person I want to tell when something good or bad happens.

I know by the amount of hurt I feel when we are not on speaking terms.

I know because of the way it doesn't hurt when we are not on speaking terms.

I know by the way your words, your actions, your body language - your energy - makes me feel.

I know because we've seen us through this far.

Eight months in a long distance relationship, where we have never met each other in real life - now that's something for you! Bahahahahah! One of us could either be a professional scammer. Or a super big day-dreamer. Or it may just be that we are both out of our mind crazy. :P

Or could it be that we are really just naively trusting in the universe, in each other, & ourselves?

I don't know. The truth is, it took me quite some time to come up with those reasons 'I know because yadda yadda yadda'. I don't know why I love you. Every reason could be shot down by some contradictory fact of life or another.

The thing is, I know that I want you in my life. What we have is so special. It would be foolish to not explore this further, to let it wither down into just another future 'what if'.

Tomorrow is never promised, what I can promise is that you have my love, my heart, my soul; in this moment. :) <3